The year started with a couple of us at The Encounter asking God to reveal Himself to us. As Christians, we have always heard about the Father’s heart and even more so about who Jesus is, but are we able to embrace who He truly is to us?

It is very common that most people would look for another job when they are no longer learning anything new or feel stagnant in their current jobs. This is inevitably so for young people. Regardless of how nice their bosses or colleagues were, or the benefits a company provides, if they find themselves stagnant in their work, they would likely be moving on. It seemed like we had never stop learning from the moment we were born; and the moment we stop learning, we stop growing. 

There were times in the past couple of years where it seemed as though God was nowhere to be found in my life. 

One of the little things I like to do during those moments is to pen my heart’s cry and more often than not, in a form of a song. My spirit knows that God is in control, but that understanding can sometimes be so hard to wrap my carnal mind around. 

Many of us might be familiar with the story of Mary and Martha (Luke 10:38-42) where Mary was sitting at Jesus’s feet listening to Him while Martha was busy doing other things…and getting unhappy that Mary was not helping her out. Listening to this passage being preached many times, reminds me that we should seek to be like Mary and not like Martha. 

The yearning for more of Him had never been so intense for me since the Covid-19 pandemic hit us back in 2020. On top of that, there were also several concurrent shifts that were happening in my life since last year.

Wouldn’t it amazing if we could have eyes like doves for our Lord and give Him the full attention and affection as lovers would bestow on each other? 

It was all about me. My day to day life was a struggle. A struggle between wanting to create and share, to be generous and giving, yet feeling stifled by my extreme fear of “not enough”. One day I couldn’t handle it anymore and brought it to the feet of Jesus.

The tide has indeed turned in the past decade or so. Unimaginable peace treaties, diasporic Israelis returning back to their motherland, signs, wonders and the countless prayer, worship and evangelistic movements across the nations are pointing towards the one defining moment that all of creation is pining for – the second coming of the Lord.

I worry a lot and make many excuses when I am placed in a position of discomfort...

I know God heard my cries but strangely, He didn’t bring me out of my conundrum. Instead, He brought me through it. He held my hand and led my every step and through that journey and experience, I grew spiritually.